Getting excited?

First I found out that I could get in-state tuition instead of out-of-state and now I've talked to two of my roommates, actually one roommate and one suitemate, and they seem so cool and we share some interests. I first talked to my roommate, Hannah, a couple of months ago, what I like about her is that she's not a party girl and is focused on academics just like me. We went through ups and downs together when we got assigned to a hall we did not wanted because it was traditional style and you had to share a bathroom with a whole floor and then we both asked for a room exchanged and got put into Delta Hall! Which is a suite style hall. Then Grace, one of my suitemates, contacted me and we have so much in common! It's amazing. We both love Busch Gardens, traveling, and sports. I guess I found my roller coaster partner! 

I'm getting so excited now that I know a couple of people I like and the date is getting so close! In 49 days is my departure flight to Tampa! 

USF Bulls Pride! 

Poem - "I Felt Alone, Then I Stood"

This is a poem I posted in my other blog Underground Poetry and is about how I felt when I was younger. I felt that I didn't fit anywhere because of who I was, and to be able to have a social life I needed to change. Now, I see that being who I am is the only way to make long lasting friendships and relationships. It brings me to tears the way children and teenagers have to learn that lesson by being bullied, or pressured into being someone they are not. I reread this poem every once in a while because it gives me confidence in knowing that what I'm doing is the right thing, and what I'm doing is simply being myself. Always stay true to yourself.

I felt alone in a dark room

where all eyes were on me

I tried to stand up, but slipped

and then everybody laughed

I feel embarrassment of living in my own skin

I feel alone because  nobody would love me

The problem is: I love who I am

And even if I get days like this, someday...

I will stand

I will stand tall with nothing to fear

I will surpass whatever you think of me

I may fall again and get punched in the face

But I will never give up on being who I am

You've bullied me enough, to the core you don't know

You got in my head and pretended nothing's wrong

You showed your pretty face while smiling away

Telling secrets of mine, leaving a scar behind. 

That scar will forever remain in my heart

You once were my friend, but now you're just a liar

I have stood in front of you for you to see

Nothing can scare me, not even my darkest dreams. 

S.K.

Week #2 (04/29/2013 - 05/05/2013)

Monday was free because of Labor Day (here in Panama), so I decided to wake up at 7:00 AM (didn't happen) to spend the whole day studying for my math test. It all began with my finger touching the snooze button, one, two, three and plus more times until is was 9:30 AM. I can't believe I spent from 10:00 AM to 10:00 PM studying, that's a new record for me! Of course I had my little breaks (including random dance breaks).

I did my exam on Tuesday, I don't wanna jinx it so I won't tell you how it went. Later in the late afternoon I went for a jog. I love running, because there's nothing else to think about than to keep up. I love the soreness in my muscles, and the pain it brings afterwards. I feel great with myself, inside and out. There's just one thing.. Every time I run I feel like I'm getting bigger rather than smaller, unlike MMA that does make me smaller. Today I ran 4 km. I also finished "It't Kind of a Funny Story" by Ned Vizzini, totally recommend the book. I read Little Women when I was in 11th grade, and lately I've been craving to finish it. So I bought the Little Women series (Little Women, Good Wives, Little Men, Jo's Boys).

On Wednesday I spent the WHOLE day studying for my Biology Final. Thank God "Little Women" only cost $1 because I got pretty bored, so I decided to leave it alone until I crave it again and leave it again. So, new book: "Ruby Red" by Kerstin Gier. My boyfriend gave it to me as a gift for our 3rd anniversary this May 7th :).

I did my one to last Final Exam on Thursday, it was Biology. 5 chapters in one exam, studied in one day: INSANE. I think I did pretty well, plus there were like 20 points of extra credits and extra credit assignments. I mean.. with that much extra credit who wouldn't go well? The rest of the day I just battled with falling asleep while studying for my Psychology Final.

And finally Friday! I did great on my Psychology Final! The rest of the day I slept, saw "New Year's Eve", and doodled. I did a Pikachu, I'm not that good at drawing but it makes me relax and have fun. About the movie, I can't believe I haven't seen it until today. I already saw the one of Valentine's Day, and I like these movies. It's funny how you can tell many stories in one movie and connect them someway at the end. What we need now is a funny Thanksgiving's movie.

Enjoy everyday as if it's your last. 

The Favor Protocol

Hi, how are you? It's been a while huh? - says a person who usually doesn't talk to you. And you and I both know what's coming ahead.
Hmm all good here, what about you? - I reply.
I'm good too. Hey, can I ask you something? - And here comes what we all know.. A damn favor. There's gotta be somebody you know that only talks to you to ask for a favor. I get so annoyed, but obviously I don't show it because it would be rude, so instead I post it here because I know there's gotta be someone else who can relate to me.

And after they go through the protocol  and ask you for the favor, which you heartily decline, comes the final protocol:
So what are you up too? What have you been doing? We should hang out. This is a pattern I've noticed in every person who asks for a favor, of course is obvious to do it because it seems to be the right thing. But for me.. It just annoys me even more because you act like you are casually talking with me, when your real motives are just plain selfish. 

Meanwhile I just tell myself to: Be patient. Be nice to people. Breathe.